Sunday, August 21, 2016

Sailing Off The Edge of The World

Good evening from the edge of the world.  Well, not really,  but it feels that way...

Have you ever been sailing on the smooth ocean of life? Suddenly,  a breeze rises, then becomes a full gale.  You find the boat taking on water, but the lifeboat is missing.  You can see an island in the distance,  but you're pretty sure that you don't have the energy left to swim.

Things have not changed much in the past three years.  But after my vacation, it became increasingly difficult to cope with the day to day sadness.  Not that I was looking at alternatives,  but I became very withdrawn.  Every move was like walking through jello. Each day was a repeat of the last. I began to live on sugar and carbs which did absolutely nothing to improve my attitude.  I was sailing towards the edge of the world at full speed. I still did the things that were necessary,  but I knew that a crash was inevitable.  I would look in the mirror and not see ME.  I would sleep through the weekend,  getting up only to care for my Dad and eat more sugar. Not a very healthy lifestyle.  LOL

I still worked, still did my projects,  but didn't find much joy in either. 

I'm not sure what changed,  but after about a month, I finally jumped in and started swimming towards the island. Am I still tired? Absolutely.  Am I still sad? Of course.  But at least I'm heading back towards my life.

I  finished the last bag of M&Ms and did not buy another.  I  crept back onto the treadmill.  I pulled out my crocheted blanket and finished the last 10 rows.

So, I am here. Thank you so much to those who checked on me.  It meant alot.

I am okay. A little worse for wear, but I'm collecting supplies and ready to sail home.

I  have pictures of a few projects,  but I will save them for my next post.  Be kind to one another. 

Sunday, July 24, 2016

I'm Here, I'm Here!

I haven't dropped off the face of the earth, though I have managed to have zombied through the past two weeks.  LOL  It's is exhausting to get old.

My computer came down with the blue screen of death.  It is at the computer doctor now. It is over six years old, but I would like to get the pictures off.  I usually back everything up on a flash drive,  but slacked off the past few months.

I finished my slub scarf and  started on my stepson's scarf.  He leaves tomorrow,  so I din't think I'll have it finished in time.  LOL  I've worked on my Giants blanket,  but it is just too warm to have it on my lap.

We did a trip to the beach last weekend.  It was beautiful!   got a picture of the herd of sea otters in the bay.  My stepson was counting the sea dollars he found.  It was his lucky day. LOL

Since I am posting from my phone,  these pictures are in no particular order.  Be kind to one another.

Saturday, July 9, 2016

Looking To Purchase, Two Extra Hours A Day....

Or, Too Many Cows, Too Little Time...

Good morning, peeps and peepettes.  I know, I know, I have been MIA for two weeks.  Let me map out my days for you.

Roll out of bed at 4 am.
Get dressed, make lunch, go to work.
Work all day, head home.
Oh, wait, need to feed the cows!! Five different stops, 35 head of cattle, takes two hours.
(My brother is on vacation, so I am on cow patrol.)
Feed cows.
Get home, feed family and Dad.
Put hay in truck for tomorrow.
Take shower, sit down to knit or stitch, fall asleep, wake up, go to bed.

Next morning...

Roll out of bed at 4 am.
Etc, Etc, Etc...

But, I have taken pictures for you!  LOL  This is how it starts.  If you look carefully, you can see a bit of a cow....waiting...

Crunch, crunch, crunch....

My baby cow, not really a baby anymore!

We were lucky to get some rain this past winter, and honestly, we only feed hay supplement to keep our cows in top shape.  We planted and harvested 1100 bales of hay, so we will be fine this winter. But why do we feed?  Here is California in July...dry and brown...


Brother will be home late tomorrow.  Thank goodness, I'm tired.  LOL

The Fourth of July was spent with family, and I am off on weekends, but those days were filled with chores and more chores.  I fit in a few naps, just to try and catch up.

I don't want you to think that I've been a slacker.  I have ALMOST finished my slub scarf.  I have ten, yes, ten, rows left.  I am hoping that I can get it done between house chores today.

And a couple of random pictures...

Here is a baby bunny ear...

A baby bird...

And baby fish...lots of them...LOL  I started with eleven fish, three died, the rest is history...These are orange platies and my two algae eaters.  

So...I am off and running, kind of...LOL  At my age, I don't really run anywhere these days.  Have a wonderful weekend, be kind to one another.

Saturday, June 25, 2016

A Little Too Warm For Comfort

Good morning from the rancho.  Sitting with my coffee, enjoying the cool early morning.

It has been far too warm this past week, almost every day was triple digits.  I can't keep my plants watered and the heat has taken a toll on my flowers.  My roses bloom, then immediately crisp by the afternoon.  I'm sure that most people have seen the news about all the California wildfires.  We loved the rain, we prayed for more.  Unfortunately, that means we will have a horrific fire season.  All it takes is one little spark.  A fire in southern California went from a small one acre grass fire, to 30,000 acres in about 24 hours.  There are 800 firefighters in the area with only a 5% containment.  They've confirmed two deaths and the loss of 1000 structures.  It's going to be a tough summer.  Please keep us in your prayers.

Meanwhile, I'm plodding along.  My Father's Day funk lasted almost all week.  I just couldn't shake the sad feelings.  Even my staff noticed that I had lost my vacation "happy".  I was off yesterday to travel to a promotional exam.  I have mixed feelings and found it hard to study.  On one hand, it would be nice to have the boost to my retirement, on the other, I would have to work for another couple of years.  Not sure.  Of course, I could not get the, this could be a moot point.  Anyway, I did a little studying and then figured either I knew it or I didn't.   I think I did well, but know that I OVER ANSWERED at least one of the questions.  Sometimes, I just can't stop talking.  LOL

On top of the worry about the exam, my morning started by dropping my cellphone in the toilet. Really?  I have to keep my phone with me all the time because of work, but I really shouldn't put it on the back of toilet while I'm cleaning.   On the other hand, at least the toilet was clean when my phone went swimming. LOL  I am much faster than I look, so I snatched it up before the water soaked through the case.  After dismantling the case, cleaning it and the phone with soap, water, and an alcohol pad, I let it dry...Yay, I didn't kill it!  I figured that either that was the way my day was going to go, or that was the worst thing that could happen.  I try not to think where it's been while using it now.  LOL

In between work, exams, and teaching my phone to swim, I've been doing some knitting.  I tried to finish up my granny square blanket, but it is getting so big and it is just too hot to hold it on my lap. So, I picked up my slub scarf.  I am liking it a bit more, starting on the third skein.  The slubs don't seem as noticeable when there are a whole bunch.  LOL

Okay, peeps.  I am off to start the day.  My brother is gone for the weekend, my husband and stepson are gone for the weekend, and I am on cow patrol.  I really need to get dressed and head out to check water troughs.  I don't think the cows would mind me in my jammies, but it could be a bit of a surprise for the people!  Have a wonderful weekend, be kind to one another.

Saturday, June 18, 2016

A Pensive Moment

Good morning.  Up before the sun this morning and one extra, extra large cup of coffee into my day. Tomorrow will be Father's Day.  I'm not really sure how I feel about that.  Yes, I still have my father, but not really.  I guess I am mourning the loss of the man I knew.  We are now three years into Hospice.  Not really something that you want to brag about.  You never, never want to be a Hospice professional. Keeping myself busy and exercising regularly helps to keep my mind straight, but I think that this is going to be a tough weekend.  Sigh....

So, I will put on my big girl bloomers and get through this time.

I took my stepson to a yarn store last week.  Needless to say, not exactly what he had planned, but once I got him to "pet" the yarn, he did get a bit interested.  LOL  I let him pick out some yarn for a scarf.  He really did a nice job.  A nice shiny grey and a pretty deep red.  I will try to get a better picture once I get started.

Trying to keep all the flowers alive in the heat.  We are supposed to hit triple digits again this weekend.  I guess that summer is here.

My one and only sunflower...

Maybe not as big as you thought...LOL

My dollar store glads are finally blooming.  Pretty color, but the heat is not good for the flowers. They seem to be a little speckled.

My cactus seem to be happy.  The heat doesn't bother them at all.  LOL  My bunny ear cactus sure has grown!

So, I am off like a herd of turtles.  We are supposed to attend a wedding this afternoon.  Not really feeling it...but will try to get excited.  Hope that all have a good weekend.  Be kind to one another.

Sunday, June 12, 2016

Don't Eat These...I Will Do That For You...

Good Morning and happy Sunday from the rancho!!

Have you seen these Peanut Butter M&Ms in the store?  The first time I was introduced to these evil candies was at my stitching retreat.  I looked high and low and finally found them at WalMart.  Do not, under any circumstances, eat these. If and when you find them, purchase all that will fit in your cart and send them to me.  I will save you and eat them myself.  LOL  These are like Reese's Pieces, but on steroids.  SO. VERY. YUMMY. I. CANNOT. STOP.  Well, I do stop when the bag is empty. LOL  And since they are candy coated, you can eat them and stitch at the same time.  Win-win!

For those of you that need a little EYE candy, in the way of yarn, here is the beautiful wool that came in  mail last week.  I was a tiny bit sad, none of them really match my slub yarn.  Of the two greens, one is too dark, one is too bright.  The misty grey might work...But, maybe, just maybe, I will need to buy more yarn!!  LOL

On Friday, my husband called to say that he was going to be late.  Well, my stepson and I decided to head to town for pizza.  Halfway there, hubby called to remind us to save him a few pieces. Hmmmm, after some thought, we did, but only because he asked.  LOL

Here is my stepson.  He is 15 and really a fun date.  LOL

He doesn't mind being silly with me!

I am off to start my Sunday chores.  I hope that each of you have a wonderful day.  Be kind to one another.

PS  I don't usually mention the news, but there was a shooting in an Orlando, Florida, nightclub early this morning.  Fifty people were murdered.  Whether this was an act of terrorism or out-and-out hate against the gay community, it doesn't matter.  Please pray for their families and the end of hate.

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

A Quick Visit...Really!! But I Have Pictures!

Okay, peeps and peepettes, I took a little look at my blog and noticed that I haven't put down one word in over a week!!  I would say that I cannot get out of vacation mode, but that's not really true.  I blogged more on vacation than I have since I've been home.  LOL

But either way, here is a quick visit...

I have tomatoes!!  They're not really ready, but I wanted to get a picture before the birds had a little snack. My plant doesn't look too healthy...not sure if it is the weather (about 95 degrees every day) or that hubby didn't water well enough while I was gone.  Oh well, at least I have a few tomatoes!          


And my first gladiola.  Very odd...I have lots and lots of plants, but this is the only one blooming.

I've tried to stay focused on my Giants afghan.  I am a little over half done.  I hope to finish it before baseball season ends.  LOL

And my not-so-favorite slubby scarf.  I am still not loving it, but I will soldier on.  LOL  I am on my second skein of yarn.  There is no way I will have enough to finish this scarf.  So....I took a little looksy on the World Wide Web...and guess what?  I found more yarn!!  LOL  LOL  LOL  It isn't the same yarn, but it compliments these colors and I think I can do some color blocks or stripes and make it work.   And of course, since it was on sale, and the more I bought, the better the sale price, well...I bought a tiny bit more than I needed for this scarf.  LOL  I will post pictures when it gets here!!

I am off and running.  Not really...but it sounds good.  LOL  Here's wishing for a lovely evening to all.  Be kind to one another.