Thursday, July 24, 2014
When is Enough?
When is enough enough? How many times can someone lie before you finally stop believing them? When does personal respect step in and say I can't do this anymore? I have listened to a loved one lie their way through life for the past 33 years. I've cried, screamed, argued, and finally became quiet. I have asked why, but there is no answer. He is unable to tell the truth. It is so much easier for him to lie. I have never been afraid to be alone, though at this point of my life, it would be difficult. I am sad. I had hoped for so much more in my life. I have said before that I have become the caretaker for everyone else in my life. So, am I to blame? Have I allowed myself to become nonexistent? I made the difficult decision almost 13 years ago to move on. But, due to laziness, let myself be talked into staying. Why? It just seemed to take too much effort for life. And, oh the promises... So once again, I find myself in the position of knowing more than I should. I am tired. I am sad. I am done. Be kind to one another.